Well it has been over a week since I started this blog and although I have been involved in computers since, well since Dad 1st bought a ZX Spectrum, this side of it is all still very new to me! So apologies for the lack of entries - will get better, I promise!
I have just got back from the gym. Now, at the moment the gym is not 1 of my demons...unlike food! Since August 2007 I have found a passion for Spinning - never thought I would say this about exercise but I actually look forward to going to a Spinning class. For those of you that haven't had the fortune of giving it a go - its cycling on static bikes, in a class, to music. It is very challenging but I think that I enjoy it because I can make it as easy or as hard as I like by adjusting the gears. Because of this I try and always work that bit harder - I burn on average 500 cals in 45 mins!!! I have built up rapports with a few of the regular Spinners and also a couple of the instructors, which only makes it more enjoyable. Though when the instructor is pushing you on gear 16 out of 24 and saying only 60 secs left - you sometimes feel like ripping their eyes out!!!
Tonight was particularly hard though, dont know why just really hard. Felt like I was gonna faint a couple of times! I was going to go to Belly Dancing, don't laugh (!), afterwards but felt quite ill so came home here to blog instead! The 1 thing that isn't getting any easier, as yet, is the sprinting on the bikes - you are meant to get as low as you can on the bikes and then go hell for leather on the pedals. Except I cant get low! My mammoth wangers and huge belly restrict me from getting down that low - so I yearn to get slim enough to do that and I will...eventually!
Its a long and winding road and I am definitely taking the scenic route to get there - still doing the hypnotherapy though I must admit I thought I would be getting more out of it than I am. I suppose I thought that it would help with my willpower by boosting it and thought that it would cut out my cravings but it hasn't. I dont know whether to stick at it or just write it off as a passing fad, it will be my 4th session next Tuesday.
Have I told you who my inspiration is for writing this blog? Its DietGirl - aka Shauna Reid (The Amazing Adventures of DietGirl). She is this amazing woman who is half the woman that she used to be - literally - and she puts me to shame! I have dilly dallied around for the best part of 10 years and need to buckle down and get on with losing half of myself! Ok I dont have quite as much to lose as she did but not far off! In her 1st few blogs she talks about having an epiphany which kicked her into action - anyone seen mine......
Thursday, 31 January 2008
Monday, 21 January 2008
Taking the Plunge....
I have battled with my weight for just about as long as I can remember. I was always the "fat kid" at school, though looking back I was never that big but I suppose because it was drummed into me I began to believe it.
Although I would sometimes go on mini diets at school, and easily lose a few pounds in a week, I never really needed to lose stones until I went to University. Alcohol and unhealthy eating soon pushed my weight up stone by stone. In my final year I decided to lose the excess weight and managed to do it without a problem - I even managed to bag myself a boyfriend! I was the lowest weight that I ever remember being at 10st 6lbs.
It didnt stay off for long though and gradually, with contentment I suppose, it crept back on and more with it. Then after a few years of not really worrying about it and my weight had shot up to 15st 11lbs (!) I decided to do something about it and I managed to lose 5st on the Slimming World diet. This seemed to work for me at the time and I lost the weight very quickly, maybe too quickly! Then due to unforseen circumstances I started the pile the weight on again when I split up with my boyfriend of 8 years and before I knew it I was heavier than I had ever been at 16st 10lbs!!!
I tried Slimming World again on a number of occasions but I would only manage to stick to it for a couple of weeks - my shifts always seemed to get in the way and I couldn't get through a week of night shifts without pigging out!
So I decided to try Weight Watchers. I was doing it at home with the books but still the weight was not coming off - looking back I don't think I was sticking to it 100% and was "gestimating" a lot of the time! So I took the plunge and signed up for Weight Watchers OnLine, I couldn't go to the meetings as I wouldn't be able to attend every week. I did quite well and managed to lose 2 stone on it and it really worked for me. But as soon as I lost the motivation the diet went out the window but luckily the most it crept back up to is 16st and this is where I am now.
Believe it or not it has taken me this long - almost 20 years - to realise that there is a pattern to all this Yo-Yo dieting that I put myself through. I believe that it is far more than just changing the way you eat, I believe that it is also about the way you are feeling and what you are thinking. I always manage to stick to a "diet" for a couple of weeks, even a couple of months but for sometime now I havent managed to stick at it long enough to make a major difference.
This blog is to help me, and hopefully help others that read it, to understand why I overeat, why I eat the food that I eat and what makes me go so out of control. My latest foolproof plan, or insane plan whichever way you look at it, is Hynotherapy! I know people that have found it successful for giving up smoking but noone that has tried it for weight loss - though there are loads of therapists out there! I am hoping that it will not only uncover why I behave the way I do with food but will help me in other aspects of my life - with confidence, self esteem, willpower etc. Who knows it might even cure me of my Arachnaphobia!!!!
Although I would sometimes go on mini diets at school, and easily lose a few pounds in a week, I never really needed to lose stones until I went to University. Alcohol and unhealthy eating soon pushed my weight up stone by stone. In my final year I decided to lose the excess weight and managed to do it without a problem - I even managed to bag myself a boyfriend! I was the lowest weight that I ever remember being at 10st 6lbs.
It didnt stay off for long though and gradually, with contentment I suppose, it crept back on and more with it. Then after a few years of not really worrying about it and my weight had shot up to 15st 11lbs (!) I decided to do something about it and I managed to lose 5st on the Slimming World diet. This seemed to work for me at the time and I lost the weight very quickly, maybe too quickly! Then due to unforseen circumstances I started the pile the weight on again when I split up with my boyfriend of 8 years and before I knew it I was heavier than I had ever been at 16st 10lbs!!!
I tried Slimming World again on a number of occasions but I would only manage to stick to it for a couple of weeks - my shifts always seemed to get in the way and I couldn't get through a week of night shifts without pigging out!
So I decided to try Weight Watchers. I was doing it at home with the books but still the weight was not coming off - looking back I don't think I was sticking to it 100% and was "gestimating" a lot of the time! So I took the plunge and signed up for Weight Watchers OnLine, I couldn't go to the meetings as I wouldn't be able to attend every week. I did quite well and managed to lose 2 stone on it and it really worked for me. But as soon as I lost the motivation the diet went out the window but luckily the most it crept back up to is 16st and this is where I am now.
Believe it or not it has taken me this long - almost 20 years - to realise that there is a pattern to all this Yo-Yo dieting that I put myself through. I believe that it is far more than just changing the way you eat, I believe that it is also about the way you are feeling and what you are thinking. I always manage to stick to a "diet" for a couple of weeks, even a couple of months but for sometime now I havent managed to stick at it long enough to make a major difference.
This blog is to help me, and hopefully help others that read it, to understand why I overeat, why I eat the food that I eat and what makes me go so out of control. My latest foolproof plan, or insane plan whichever way you look at it, is Hynotherapy! I know people that have found it successful for giving up smoking but noone that has tried it for weight loss - though there are loads of therapists out there! I am hoping that it will not only uncover why I behave the way I do with food but will help me in other aspects of my life - with confidence, self esteem, willpower etc. Who knows it might even cure me of my Arachnaphobia!!!!
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